A New Year is on the way- 2010

Three more days to go before a New Year starts and where am a I.
1. N0 longer a wife and haven't been since Feb 2005
2. No longer a daughter - Dad passed away on Nov 1, 2009 and Mom had passed away in Oct 2005
3. Still single
4. Still teaching- part time
5. Still fat
6. Still on the electric mobility device
7. Still living in the double wide mobile home.

What do I want
1. To be married
2. To be thin & healthy
3. To be off the mobility device
4. To have more friends
5. To do more beading activities

How am I going to achieve these goals
1. To be on a lot of dating sites
2. To start WW and exercise
3. To use the walker and canes more
4. To join some meet up groups
5. To begin beading candle holders.

I'll write more once I check into the WW meetings and the exercise program. Have the WW meeting scheduled for Jan 1st and the exercise program interview scheduled for Jan 6th.
Stay Happy and Healthy

Oct 19 down 5 lbs from last month

Hi All
Well I did get both the Sensa and the Miracleburn. I weighed in on Sept 28th (the day after I got back from my Daytona trip) at 397-OMG so close to 400 and I said never again would I cross that line and I meant it. So I started to sprinkle the Sensa on my food. That first week I sprinkled it on everything I ate. I could smell the stuff but didn't taste a thing. It seems like it helped me not eat as much as I normally would eat. The first week I weighed in 15 pounds lighter. The next day I weighed again as I couldn't believe 15 pounds gone in 1 week. I have never lost that much weight in one week. The most was 13 on the Nutrisystem program. Well it was true, 15 pounds gone. However I forgot to turn off the scale and when I noticed I hadn't turned it off the 3rd place 8 was blinking and blinking and would not stop no matter what I did to it. So I guess it was broken and the next day I ordered a replacement. The replacement arrived today Oct 19th and I managed to stay the same weight. I tried to continue to use the Sensa during the last 2 weeks but I didn't put it on everything and I did have a few bad food choice days. How I managed to stay at 382 is beyond me. But I am very happy I did. I also joined 2 forums over at the Sensa message board. The 100+ club over there is having a challenge so I asked about it and hopefully I will be able to join it which will help keep me accountable.

This past June I went to an Orlando BBW bash weighing 368. So I guess my first goal is to get back to that weight. So that is another 14 pounds to lose. Once there I will look at the next mini goal. One goal at a time. My long term goal is: I would like to go back to the Orlando bash in June 2010 weighing below 300 pounds.
So until next time stay healthy and happy

2 months later 13 pounds heavier

Needless to say I have not done anything in the last 2 months but eat. I just can't seem to getmotivated to do anything, no diet, no exercise and even believe or not no crafts. I don't really understand what is getting me so down. I do know that this month is a difficult one for me. As this is the month in 2005 I lost my step brother and my mother and it is my father's birthday. That birthday should be a happy event but he is in Nc with Alzheimer's Disease and even if I were to call him (passed on past calls) he would have no idea who I am or what I am talking about. So I guess I will wish him here Happy Birthday Dad I Love You.

As for me, well there is a man in my life (sort of) but with his crazy schedule and life in South Florida I hardly get to see him. I am lucky if he comes around once a week. We have fun and then he is gone. Thank God for Instant Message as we do keep in contact on a more regular basis usually in the evenings.

As for the weight loss I did order 2 things of which I am hoping and praying one of them works. I ordered but have not received Sensa and Miracleburn. I did try this Monday to get back on WW but on the third day I screwed up. I suppose some of it was because I don't have my scooter (waiting for a brake part) so I can't shop for things I need. I am trying to do the best I can with what I have here in the house.

Till next time stay happy and healthy

Mid July 2009 update

Well the MF Way lasted less than 2 days. OMG that stuff is so horrible I couldn't stand it. My intentions were great but there is no way I could eat or rather drink that stuff. I threw it away. I am not doing the NS Way either, so I changed my title to ssflbelle weight loss journey.

As it turns out the online guy came back the first week of 2009 as he couldn't take working at the homeless shelter any more. Needless to say by the time he left in May 2009 I had gained another 18 pounds.

As far as work The Lighthouse finally called me back and I started working for them in May 2009 while also working for FOCB for the last 2 weeks as I gave notice. So for 2 weeks I worked 2 jobs and boy oh boy did my legs object to that as I developed Lymphedema again. CRAP!!!

I also went back on WW in May and in 6 weeks I managed to lose 15 pounds. As for the Lymphedema I couldn't be seen for treatments until June 21st which worked out ok. I had a BBW bash in Orlando I was scheduled to go to and I didn't want to cancel it. I also wanted to go to meet the Orlando friend I had been communicate with on line for over a month. We meet and I do like him but who knows what the future holds. I say this because the On line guy came back in June 2009 as he couldn't take it at the Grand Canyon. He is leaving again on July 20th and I am once again going back on WW. I am 375 and have entered a 3 fat chick summer challenge for 10 weeks. I have a mini goal of 25 pounds. In addition to tracking my points I plan to start to do some chair and very quick standing exercises here at the house. I do have the tapes (yes I said tapes. I know I am so far behind the times.) from Richard Simmons and a few others. So come Tuesday, Thursday and Saturday I will do the more strenuous ones and the other 4 days I will do the simpler ones.

I am hoping and praying this is the last time for the online guy and my weight loss. I want more in my life than just a friend, which is all that he is. I want to be able to get back down to 318 by the end of the year. So starting today I have to buckle down and stop letting food rule me! Till next week Stay Happy and Healthy.

Here I go again

Well the rest of 2008 was a bust as far as weight loss was concerned. As it turns out I was denied WLS and the Appeal was also denied. Doesn't make sense to me that they would deny someone who weighs as much as I do and has all these complications WLS but they did. So if they want to keep paying the cost of all these other complications for the next year while I try and get my weight down on my own let them.

As of Jan 4th I started a new challenge with the 3 fat chicks even though I will not be receiving my MF food until Monday. Hey I guess I need to change my title to THE MF Weigh. So the horrible results is that this Sunday I weigh in at 365 pounds. That is a 59 pound gain this year as I went off of NS and had 4 back procedures done which prevented me from exercising. This new MF progam states 20 pounds a month which means this extra weight I put on this past year should be gone in 3 months, hopefully. Than I can start working on the rest of the weight to get to 200 pounds. Depending on how I feel at that weight I might try to get to my normal goal of 150. I hope to post weekly so the 3 fat chicks and anyone else still following my progress might be inspired to lose weight and get healthier in 2009