Well the MF Way lasted less than 2 days. OMG that stuff is so horrible I couldn't stand it. My intentions were great but there is no way I could eat or rather drink that stuff. I threw it away. I am not doing the NS Way either, so I changed my title to ssflbelle weight loss journey.
As it turns out the online guy came back the first week of 2009 as he couldn't take working at the homeless shelter any more. Needless to say by the time he left in May 2009 I had gained another 18 pounds.
As far as work The Lighthouse finally called me back and I started working for them in May 2009 while also working for FOCB for the last 2 weeks as I gave notice. So for 2 weeks I worked 2 jobs and boy oh boy did my legs object to that as I developed Lymphedema again. CRAP!!!
I also went back on WW in May and in 6 weeks I managed to lose 15 pounds. As for the Lymphedema I couldn't be seen for treatments until June 21st which worked out ok. I had a BBW bash in Orlando I was scheduled to go to and I didn't want to cancel it. I also wanted to go to meet the Orlando friend I had been communicate with on line for over a month. We meet and I do like him but who knows what the future holds. I say this because the On line guy came back in June 2009 as he couldn't take it at the Grand Canyon. He is leaving again on July 20th and I am once again going back on WW. I am 375 and have entered a 3 fat chick summer challenge for 10 weeks. I have a mini goal of 25 pounds. In addition to tracking my points I plan to start to do some chair and very quick standing exercises here at the house. I do have the tapes (yes I said tapes. I know I am so far behind the times.) from Richard Simmons and a few others. So come Tuesday, Thursday and Saturday I will do the more strenuous ones and the other 4 days I will do the simpler ones.
I am hoping and praying this is the last time for the online guy and my weight loss. I want more in my life than just a friend, which is all that he is. I want to be able to get back down to 318 by the end of the year. So starting today I have to buckle down and stop letting food rule me! Till next week Stay Happy and Healthy.
Thursday, July 16, 2009
Sunday, January 04, 2009
Here I go again
Well the rest of 2008 was a bust as far as weight loss was concerned. As it turns out I was denied WLS and the Appeal was also denied. Doesn't make sense to me that they would deny someone who weighs as much as I do and has all these complications WLS but they did. So if they want to keep paying the cost of all these other complications for the next year while I try and get my weight down on my own let them.
As of Jan 4th I started a new challenge with the 3 fat chicks even though I will not be receiving my MF food until Monday. Hey I guess I need to change my title to THE MF Weigh. So the horrible results is that this Sunday I weigh in at 365 pounds. That is a 59 pound gain this year as I went off of NS and had 4 back procedures done which prevented me from exercising. This new MF progam states 20 pounds a month which means this extra weight I put on this past year should be gone in 3 months, hopefully. Than I can start working on the rest of the weight to get to 200 pounds. Depending on how I feel at that weight I might try to get to my normal goal of 150. I hope to post weekly so the 3 fat chicks and anyone else still following my progress might be inspired to lose weight and get healthier in 2009
As of Jan 4th I started a new challenge with the 3 fat chicks even though I will not be receiving my MF food until Monday. Hey I guess I need to change my title to THE MF Weigh. So the horrible results is that this Sunday I weigh in at 365 pounds. That is a 59 pound gain this year as I went off of NS and had 4 back procedures done which prevented me from exercising. This new MF progam states 20 pounds a month which means this extra weight I put on this past year should be gone in 3 months, hopefully. Than I can start working on the rest of the weight to get to 200 pounds. Depending on how I feel at that weight I might try to get to my normal goal of 150. I hope to post weekly so the 3 fat chicks and anyone else still following my progress might be inspired to lose weight and get healthier in 2009
Thursday, June 12, 2008
Dr. Larson not the one for me!
Hi All
Well it took over 2 weeks for Dr. Larson's office to notify me that I can't have the surgery through this Dr as JFK is not a Center of Excellence and will not be one until maybe some time in the Fall. Screw that! So I got back on line and after a whole day of searching for Doctors on my plan and Hospitals that are Centers of Excellence, I finally found one in Hollywood Fl an hours drive South of here.
I filled out the on line 9 page profile on a Sunday and was contacted on a Tuesday and was to attend a seminar on that Thursday. I started down to Hollywood but got as far as Boca Raton and had to get off I-95 to get gas and as soon as I did I had Van trouble and was too afraid to go the rest of the way. I am wheelchair bound and what if I got stranded down there all alone. So I turned around and head back home. I called Nick (my mechanic) and he finally came on Sunday to fix the van. Over $850 the fuel pump was the problem as he thinks the gas station I stopped at had ethanol in their gas and my pump was not able to take that kind of stuff.
Well I emailed Tiffany and told her what happened and she told Cindy and they sent me some on line videos to view and when I was done with them I would be able to make my appt to see the Dr.
In the mean time I did get to the spine Dr. A. and he informed me I had too many problems and he could only take care of one of them at a time. Which was the most painful and which did I want him to focus on. I told him my back pain and he was surprised to hear this as he thought the hip was worse off than the back. He told me my hip has necrosis ( basically is dead) and that I would need hip replacement but that no Dr would touch me at this weight (even though I have lost 140 pounds it is not enough) and had I thought about WLS. Gee I told him that very night I had a seminar to go to about Lapband. Well as we all know I never made it there. Anyhow I few days later I phone him and told him I needed him to say it was medically necessary that I have the lapband and he sent something to DR. B. Dr B emailed me that it was not the right thing and sent a sample letter. I will be seeing the Dr. A. on Tuesday and the PCP Dr. R on Thursday so hopefully they will be able to write the letters at that time.
The blood work up came back and Dr. R seem pleasantly surprised that I had no diabetes, no thyroid problems and everything looked good except for my cholestrol which was 135 just borderline. He stated it was not necessary to be on any meds, just watch what I eat and do what ever exercise I can do. He would see me on Thursday for the elevated HPB and we can write the letter at that time for the lapband surgery.
So things are progressing with my health, now if only they would progress with my work. I just wish the Lighthouse would get there center based program going and than I would be all set in the new job and happy. This FOCB job is really driving me nuts, especially having to redo other teacher's monthly reports because they don't know how to do them. Than I am told by one of them that DBS has issues with the reports and he sends me an updated version (which IMHO doesn't look any different). Hey DBS I also have clients and reports I have to do! So what are these issue you have with the reports, how about telling me too DUH!!!!!! I sent an email as it is after hours, Gee you think I will get a reply tonight? I think not!
Well it took over 2 weeks for Dr. Larson's office to notify me that I can't have the surgery through this Dr as JFK is not a Center of Excellence and will not be one until maybe some time in the Fall. Screw that! So I got back on line and after a whole day of searching for Doctors on my plan and Hospitals that are Centers of Excellence, I finally found one in Hollywood Fl an hours drive South of here.
I filled out the on line 9 page profile on a Sunday and was contacted on a Tuesday and was to attend a seminar on that Thursday. I started down to Hollywood but got as far as Boca Raton and had to get off I-95 to get gas and as soon as I did I had Van trouble and was too afraid to go the rest of the way. I am wheelchair bound and what if I got stranded down there all alone. So I turned around and head back home. I called Nick (my mechanic) and he finally came on Sunday to fix the van. Over $850 the fuel pump was the problem as he thinks the gas station I stopped at had ethanol in their gas and my pump was not able to take that kind of stuff.
Well I emailed Tiffany and told her what happened and she told Cindy and they sent me some on line videos to view and when I was done with them I would be able to make my appt to see the Dr.
In the mean time I did get to the spine Dr. A. and he informed me I had too many problems and he could only take care of one of them at a time. Which was the most painful and which did I want him to focus on. I told him my back pain and he was surprised to hear this as he thought the hip was worse off than the back. He told me my hip has necrosis ( basically is dead) and that I would need hip replacement but that no Dr would touch me at this weight (even though I have lost 140 pounds it is not enough) and had I thought about WLS. Gee I told him that very night I had a seminar to go to about Lapband. Well as we all know I never made it there. Anyhow I few days later I phone him and told him I needed him to say it was medically necessary that I have the lapband and he sent something to DR. B. Dr B emailed me that it was not the right thing and sent a sample letter. I will be seeing the Dr. A. on Tuesday and the PCP Dr. R on Thursday so hopefully they will be able to write the letters at that time.
The blood work up came back and Dr. R seem pleasantly surprised that I had no diabetes, no thyroid problems and everything looked good except for my cholestrol which was 135 just borderline. He stated it was not necessary to be on any meds, just watch what I eat and do what ever exercise I can do. He would see me on Thursday for the elevated HPB and we can write the letter at that time for the lapband surgery.
So things are progressing with my health, now if only they would progress with my work. I just wish the Lighthouse would get there center based program going and than I would be all set in the new job and happy. This FOCB job is really driving me nuts, especially having to redo other teacher's monthly reports because they don't know how to do them. Than I am told by one of them that DBS has issues with the reports and he sends me an updated version (which IMHO doesn't look any different). Hey DBS I also have clients and reports I have to do! So what are these issue you have with the reports, how about telling me too DUH!!!!!! I sent an email as it is after hours, Gee you think I will get a reply tonight? I think not!
Saturday, May 24, 2008
Still Waiting
Hi all
It has now been 8 business days and I am still waiting to hear from Dr. Larsen's office about the insurance approval. ON Thursday the 15th N. called to ask a few more questions which I thought I had previously answered but I guess she didn't write down the answers. I called on the 22nd and N stated hey hadn't heard anything back from the insurance yet and that she would call as soon as they do.
In the mean time I did go for the MRI of my back and the Xrays of my right hip and left shoulder. Also went for the blood, urine and stool workup. I have heard from Dr. R about the MRI and Xrays. I knew I had spinal stenosis and osteoarthritis of the right hip so that info was not new. What was new is that I have 3 bulging discs in the L3-4, L4-5 and the S1 areas of my back, thus explains the excruciating pain I have been in for the last 13 years at least. As far as the shoulder I have osteoarthritis in that as well. Stupid Dr I had gone to in 2005 told me "Oh don't worry about it,it is just a fatty deposit it will go down. Yea well it went down and even afte PT I still can not get my hand behind my back. THANKS DR! Dr. R asked what previous treatments I had to treat these problems and whenI told him 3 epidural 6 months of prolotherpahy shots, PT for months on my back , hip and shoulder and none of it worked he wanted to refer me to a physiatry. I wanted laproscopic back surgery on the bulging discs but he wouldn't refer me. So now I am waiting for a referral to a physiatry and hopefully he will refer me for the back surgery.
I just wish this was all over with and I was living a normal life doing the things I use to enjoy so much. I HATE LIVING LIKE THIS!
As far as my love life well MW never showed! Gee I knew it, it was too good to be true! He Imed while I was at the MRI and when I came home I read "sorry but I have to take my daughter out of the state to a Dr will not be back until May 26th." I haven't heard form him since. He was suppose to be on a bus on his way to me on the 21st. The story of my love life. I guess no one wants to be with a crippled!!!!!!
It has now been 8 business days and I am still waiting to hear from Dr. Larsen's office about the insurance approval. ON Thursday the 15th N. called to ask a few more questions which I thought I had previously answered but I guess she didn't write down the answers. I called on the 22nd and N stated hey hadn't heard anything back from the insurance yet and that she would call as soon as they do.
In the mean time I did go for the MRI of my back and the Xrays of my right hip and left shoulder. Also went for the blood, urine and stool workup. I have heard from Dr. R about the MRI and Xrays. I knew I had spinal stenosis and osteoarthritis of the right hip so that info was not new. What was new is that I have 3 bulging discs in the L3-4, L4-5 and the S1 areas of my back, thus explains the excruciating pain I have been in for the last 13 years at least. As far as the shoulder I have osteoarthritis in that as well. Stupid Dr I had gone to in 2005 told me "Oh don't worry about it,it is just a fatty deposit it will go down. Yea well it went down and even afte PT I still can not get my hand behind my back. THANKS DR! Dr. R asked what previous treatments I had to treat these problems and whenI told him 3 epidural 6 months of prolotherpahy shots, PT for months on my back , hip and shoulder and none of it worked he wanted to refer me to a physiatry. I wanted laproscopic back surgery on the bulging discs but he wouldn't refer me. So now I am waiting for a referral to a physiatry and hopefully he will refer me for the back surgery.
I just wish this was all over with and I was living a normal life doing the things I use to enjoy so much. I HATE LIVING LIKE THIS!
As far as my love life well MW never showed! Gee I knew it, it was too good to be true! He Imed while I was at the MRI and when I came home I read "sorry but I have to take my daughter out of the state to a Dr will not be back until May 26th." I haven't heard form him since. He was suppose to be on a bus on his way to me on the 21st. The story of my love life. I guess no one wants to be with a crippled!!!!!!
Tuesday, May 13, 2008
I am still here!
No I didn’t fall off the planet, just fell of the program. I know it has been over 17 months since I last posted. If anyone had been reading this blog from my NS or my Happy and Healthy group or maybe my new LB friends have just started reading, I suppose I need to catch you all up on what has happened during the past 17 months.
Well I did get to the Dr appt in Dec 2006 and I was so pissed when I left as he said not one word about my weight loss. How could he have not noticed a loss of 88 pounds is beyond me. When I went back to BL the ladies there exercising with me said that I should change to a different Dr. I never did as I am still with that same However in March of 2007 he did notice I had lost weight when I finally got down to 306 pounds. He said at that time he noticed it before but forgot to say anything to me. A loss of 96 pounds since January 2006, but a total weight loss of 181 pounds since 2004.
* From March 2007 until Nov 2007 I continued with NS but only ordered 5 times as I started eating regular foods for some meals. The reason for regular food was that I had met a man D.P. and he and I were seeing each other every Tuesday, Thursday and Saturday. I was finally able to save some money and bought 4 brand new appliances. With my BF’s help I was able to afford to buy the supplies and he supplied the free labor to get my house back in shape from the hurricanes of 2005. The previous volunteers were limited in what they could do so there was still plenty of walls that needed to be fixed. On those 3 days I would prepare and serve regular foods but tried to follow the NS plan as much as possible. I did continued to exercise at BL but not as much during the summer as I had in previous months. I was getting plenty of exercise stripping the torn wall paper, repairing the walls and repainting them in my Living Room, Kitchen and Bedroom, of course my BF helped. Had it not been for him, it probably still would not be done. During this time, I didn’t lose any more weight, but was able to maintain between 306 and 318 for those 9 months. About 3 months into the repairs, my BF and I realized our relationship was just going to be one of a good friendship but nothing more. So we both began looking again, but stayed friends and continued on with the repairs. In June I was chatting with a man on line and we really hit it off.
*In Nov 2007, the man I had met on line came to live with me . He had lost his job as a Director of a homeless shelter and since the Director was required to live at the shelter he had no where to go. We thought it might be a good idea for him to come live with me. We thought he could help me out as well as work in a homeless shelter or as a chef down here. He moved in Dec 15, 2007; He moved out 4 months later as he couldn’t find any work down here. In fact he had worked only 7 days during the entire 4 months he was here. Why he couldn’t find a job done here as a Chef is beyond me as I had gained 30 pounds during those 4 months. He is a fantastic Chef and had applied to dozens of places but it was a homeless shelter in Jackson Hole Wy where he finally got a job as an assistant director. I think another major reason for the weight gain was that BL closed down in December and I could no longer work out 3 days a week like I had been .
* After J left in April of 2007, I wondered now that I am alone again what do I do about my weight. I proved to myself I can lose it but I can’t keep it off. As soon as I go off a program and start eating regular foods and don’t exercise I gain. During the 4 months I was gaining I was always hungry yet on NS I wasn’t. I really couldn’t afford NS any more and I knew that in May my disability Medicare would start. I have tried so many weight loss programs since I was 12 years old and never was able to keep the weight off. If only there was something that would tell my brain that I was full and didn’t need any more food. I had heard about the Lap Band Surgery in 2007 when that commercials with the tiger came on TV. Do you know the one I am speaking off? Well anyhow, I got a book from the Library and went on line and did some research for a few weeks until I had my May 8th visit with my PCP. During that visit we had discussed my health in detail as I hadn’t had any insurance since 2005 and the only tests I had done were X-rays in 2006 when I finally applied for disability. The Dr wanted me to go for an MRI on my lower back, X-rays of my right hip and left shoulder. He wanted me to go for an extensive blood and urine tests and I expressed an interest to him about the Lap Band Surgery. He gave me the Ok to contact Kenneth Larsen a Lap Band Surgeon.
*On May 13th I was finally able to talk with Patricia from Dr Larsen’s office. She took all my information and stated she would be contacting my Medicare advantage plan to see if they would cover the surgery. She stated she would get back to me in 2 to 3 days and we will take it from there. So here I sit, waiting to possibly begin a new chapter in my life with my weight loss. As for my love life well, M.W. continues to call, email and IM me but not as much as he did that first week. Some nights we chat for hours on end, finding out more and more about each other. We have discussed meeting during my long Memorial Day weekend. I would love the chance to get to meet him and find out if we are compatible. Perhaps in 9 more days I will know. I suppose I will write another post here when I hear that my insurance has approved my LB surgery.
Well I did get to the Dr appt in Dec 2006 and I was so pissed when I left as he said not one word about my weight loss. How could he have not noticed a loss of 88 pounds is beyond me. When I went back to BL the ladies there exercising with me said that I should change to a different Dr. I never did as I am still with that same However in March of 2007 he did notice I had lost weight when I finally got down to 306 pounds. He said at that time he noticed it before but forgot to say anything to me. A loss of 96 pounds since January 2006, but a total weight loss of 181 pounds since 2004.
* From March 2007 until Nov 2007 I continued with NS but only ordered 5 times as I started eating regular foods for some meals. The reason for regular food was that I had met a man D.P. and he and I were seeing each other every Tuesday, Thursday and Saturday. I was finally able to save some money and bought 4 brand new appliances. With my BF’s help I was able to afford to buy the supplies and he supplied the free labor to get my house back in shape from the hurricanes of 2005. The previous volunteers were limited in what they could do so there was still plenty of walls that needed to be fixed. On those 3 days I would prepare and serve regular foods but tried to follow the NS plan as much as possible. I did continued to exercise at BL but not as much during the summer as I had in previous months. I was getting plenty of exercise stripping the torn wall paper, repairing the walls and repainting them in my Living Room, Kitchen and Bedroom, of course my BF helped. Had it not been for him, it probably still would not be done. During this time, I didn’t lose any more weight, but was able to maintain between 306 and 318 for those 9 months. About 3 months into the repairs, my BF and I realized our relationship was just going to be one of a good friendship but nothing more. So we both began looking again, but stayed friends and continued on with the repairs. In June I was chatting with a man on line and we really hit it off.
*In Nov 2007, the man I had met on line came to live with me . He had lost his job as a Director of a homeless shelter and since the Director was required to live at the shelter he had no where to go. We thought it might be a good idea for him to come live with me. We thought he could help me out as well as work in a homeless shelter or as a chef down here. He moved in Dec 15, 2007; He moved out 4 months later as he couldn’t find any work down here. In fact he had worked only 7 days during the entire 4 months he was here. Why he couldn’t find a job done here as a Chef is beyond me as I had gained 30 pounds during those 4 months. He is a fantastic Chef and had applied to dozens of places but it was a homeless shelter in Jackson Hole Wy where he finally got a job as an assistant director. I think another major reason for the weight gain was that BL closed down in December and I could no longer work out 3 days a week like I had been .
* After J left in April of 2007, I wondered now that I am alone again what do I do about my weight. I proved to myself I can lose it but I can’t keep it off. As soon as I go off a program and start eating regular foods and don’t exercise I gain. During the 4 months I was gaining I was always hungry yet on NS I wasn’t. I really couldn’t afford NS any more and I knew that in May my disability Medicare would start. I have tried so many weight loss programs since I was 12 years old and never was able to keep the weight off. If only there was something that would tell my brain that I was full and didn’t need any more food. I had heard about the Lap Band Surgery in 2007 when that commercials with the tiger came on TV. Do you know the one I am speaking off? Well anyhow, I got a book from the Library and went on line and did some research for a few weeks until I had my May 8th visit with my PCP. During that visit we had discussed my health in detail as I hadn’t had any insurance since 2005 and the only tests I had done were X-rays in 2006 when I finally applied for disability. The Dr wanted me to go for an MRI on my lower back, X-rays of my right hip and left shoulder. He wanted me to go for an extensive blood and urine tests and I expressed an interest to him about the Lap Band Surgery. He gave me the Ok to contact Kenneth Larsen a Lap Band Surgeon.
*On May 13th I was finally able to talk with Patricia from Dr Larsen’s office. She took all my information and stated she would be contacting my Medicare advantage plan to see if they would cover the surgery. She stated she would get back to me in 2 to 3 days and we will take it from there. So here I sit, waiting to possibly begin a new chapter in my life with my weight loss. As for my love life well, M.W. continues to call, email and IM me but not as much as he did that first week. Some nights we chat for hours on end, finding out more and more about each other. We have discussed meeting during my long Memorial Day weekend. I would love the chance to get to meet him and find out if we are compatible. Perhaps in 9 more days I will know. I suppose I will write another post here when I hear that my insurance has approved my LB surgery.
Saturday, December 23, 2006
Weeks 19 through 48 -an additional 30 pounds gone
Hi Everyone
Weeks 19 through 48 WOW! Where have I been for so long. I can't even remember when week 19 was without looking back at the calendar. Let's see from June 7th until Dec 26th what have I been doing with my life? But most important is how have I been doing with the NS program?
Well as you can see by the title I have lost another 30 pounds for a total of 88 pounds now. I can't believe I have lost that much weight and have stayed with this program for as long as I have with all that has been going on in my life. Since Jan 2006 when I started this program changes have occurred in my life in more areas then weight loss.
I have had a few trips and some dates and have been making better restaurant selections. I still tend to overeat when stress and loneliness sets in. Especially around the anniversary of my Mother's death and the month that I knew a close friend of 13 years was moving back home to Washington. Of course being all alone on the Holidays is a real bummer for me and I HATE IT! As a result of the weight loss I am physically feeling better and I have begun to get out a little bit and start enjoying my life. I know to some of you these activities don't seem like much but for me it is a start and as time goes on I hope to become even more active. Most of you probably care less about these activities but to me they are a milestone in my life and for that reason I am putting them to paper. Where do I start?
* In August I started working 13 hours a week for the F O C B as an Assistant to the Director and a Braille Instructor- Again Thank God!
* In August I meet So a fellow NS member and poster on the Jazzman message board. Russell and I went to Cocoa Beach to meet So and her friend. I drove the whole 2 hour trip up there and the 2 hours back. I am so pleased I was able to do this. It was only the second time since the divorce that I have taken a little trip. In April I had driven 1 1/2 hours to Port St Lucie to pick up my new electric mobility device and Scooter lift.
* In Aug I also had my Second and Third date since the divorce. J seemed like a nice man but he lives in Orlando and was down in Fort Lauderdale for a business trip. We had made plans to meet again but he kept cancelling every week, week after week. After about the 4th cancellation I just told him don't bother instant messaging any more because I know your "Just not into me." His loss!
However T on the other hand meet me this month also and we have developed a nice friendship. He too is an extremely busy man and we don't get together very often but he does try to call once every 2 weeks or so and we do get together once a month. I wish it were more often but understand his situation.
* Also in October I got to meet several NS people who live in Florida and came to the Sawgrass Mill Mall for a lunch at The Grand Lux and a day of shopping. It was so great to see them, share their sucess stories, talk about their lives and hopefully make some new friends. Making new friends is important to me as:
* In October I had to say good bye to my dear friend Russell (Lois's husband) who I have known for 13 years. After his wife passed away in April he decided he needed to return to his home state. He moved back to Washington to be with his Parents and Siblings.
* In November I had my 5th through 7th date all with the same man E . We went out to dinner twice and a movie (Happy Feet.) But once again I found a man who is extremely busy with work. He works 2 jobs and has very little time to do anything. He passes right by my street exit every Monday when he goes to visit his Mother but doesn't stop off to see me. I think I need to look for a retired man who will have the time to be with me. But then again I never have really liked older men as they always are talking about all their illnesses and can't seem to keep up with me in certain areas.
* Also in Novemeber I took a major step in transforming myself as I signed up for a years worth of exercises at B L . I am able to get into and out of the 10 pieces of equipment. We even figured out how to get me up on and off of the mini trampoline. You are suppose to be able to do the circuit twice within a 1/2 hour. However because of all my limitations it take me an hour to do the exercise and either S or K have to be there with me every step of the way. They make all the equipment seat height and weight lift changes for me. They also bring me my water bottle and take my canes from me and bring them back to me when I am ready to move to the next piece of equipment. I am so enjoying this exercising and know that it will benefit me and help to tone my body.
The ultimate goal is that this exercise will help to strengthen my joints so that I will be able to walk without surgery. I so miss not being able to walk and do the things I used to do. I know it is this inability to walk that is stopping me from doing so many great and wonderful things. I would love to be working full time, going to dance classes, bowling etc, These kinds of actiiites would allow me to meet new people and enjoy life. I know I have made great progress but dam it I am so tired of just existing. I WANT TO LIVE A FUN LIFE and not watch it pass me by.
Now it is December and this month I organized a get together for the Fort Lauderdale Divorce Support group as the organizer had the date and time but hadn't picked a location. I waited and waited but it didn't seem like he was going to, so I did. I was so wanting to make new friends that I decided that if someone doesn't follow through I'd pick up the pieces and complete the project. Well I did get to meet 2 new women who showed up for the dinner at Olive Garden, D and J . T meet us there about 1 1/2 hours late. I invited him as I wasn't sure if anyone would be there and I didn't want to travel down to Boca Raton and have a dinner all by myself. Once I got there I told him 2 other women had arrived and he didn't need to come after all. I guess he was interested in meeting others going through a divorce too so he came down.
I had my 8th and 9th date with F . A guy orginally from Peru, who I thought was very nice and helpful, handsome and polite. I saw him twice within 3 days and thought we really had something going on with each other. I left for my short trip to Daytona Beach to meet with a couple I had meet in another chat room. Had a lovely few days with them and also toured the Rehab Center for the Blind. The day after I got back I called F only to discover he was on the road traveling to Las Vegas to find work as he was not successful in doing so here during the short three weeks he was here. All I could think of when he told me was WHAT THE FUCK! Well it probably wouldn't have worked out any how as on the second day I saw some red flags and areas where we would have problems. I am really beginning to wonder if there is a man out there for me who can meet all of my requirements. Am I too picky?
Well I started this on Decemeber 23 and I am finishing it up on Dec 26th. This pretty much sums up weeks 19 through 48. Below are some pictures taken during this time period.
This first one was taken in August with SO.
This second one was in October when I met some of the other NS Ladies but not knowing if I have their permission to post their pictures I cropped them out.
This last one was taken Novemeber 30th at B l . It was the second day I was there and the first time I was on the mini trampoline. Of course my clothing is so huge you really can't see that I have lost weight.
Well folks that is it for now. I suppose the next time I will post will be when I have lost 100 pounds. Hopefully that will be before my Birthday. I do have a Doctor appointment December 27th. It is my first in over a year so I hope the Doctor will be pleased with my weight loss and my recovery form Lymphedema. Last year around this time I was getting physical theraphy for the swelling of my leg and my weight had climbed to 404. This past week I went on the short trip to Daytona and also went a bit aboard on Christmas evening and day with my foods. I was feeling sorry for myself because I was all alone so I ate foods I shouldn't have and I have gained some since last week. As of today Dec 26th I am 316. So that is really a lost of 88 pounds since last year and most of it was done with no exercise at all.
To all who have read and posted comments and offered support in the Yahoo and NS groups, Thank you so much you all helped me to achieve what I have so far today. Hope your New Year brings you all the things you wished for and Good Health and Happiness.
Weeks 19 through 48 WOW! Where have I been for so long. I can't even remember when week 19 was without looking back at the calendar. Let's see from June 7th until Dec 26th what have I been doing with my life? But most important is how have I been doing with the NS program?
Well as you can see by the title I have lost another 30 pounds for a total of 88 pounds now. I can't believe I have lost that much weight and have stayed with this program for as long as I have with all that has been going on in my life. Since Jan 2006 when I started this program changes have occurred in my life in more areas then weight loss.
I have had a few trips and some dates and have been making better restaurant selections. I still tend to overeat when stress and loneliness sets in. Especially around the anniversary of my Mother's death and the month that I knew a close friend of 13 years was moving back home to Washington. Of course being all alone on the Holidays is a real bummer for me and I HATE IT! As a result of the weight loss I am physically feeling better and I have begun to get out a little bit and start enjoying my life. I know to some of you these activities don't seem like much but for me it is a start and as time goes on I hope to become even more active. Most of you probably care less about these activities but to me they are a milestone in my life and for that reason I am putting them to paper. Where do I start?
* In August I started working 13 hours a week for the F O C B as an Assistant to the Director and a Braille Instructor- Again Thank God!
* In August I meet So a fellow NS member and poster on the Jazzman message board. Russell and I went to Cocoa Beach to meet So and her friend. I drove the whole 2 hour trip up there and the 2 hours back. I am so pleased I was able to do this. It was only the second time since the divorce that I have taken a little trip. In April I had driven 1 1/2 hours to Port St Lucie to pick up my new electric mobility device and Scooter lift.
* In Aug I also had my Second and Third date since the divorce. J seemed like a nice man but he lives in Orlando and was down in Fort Lauderdale for a business trip. We had made plans to meet again but he kept cancelling every week, week after week. After about the 4th cancellation I just told him don't bother instant messaging any more because I know your "Just not into me." His loss!
However T on the other hand meet me this month also and we have developed a nice friendship. He too is an extremely busy man and we don't get together very often but he does try to call once every 2 weeks or so and we do get together once a month. I wish it were more often but understand his situation.
* Also in October I got to meet several NS people who live in Florida and came to the Sawgrass Mill Mall for a lunch at The Grand Lux and a day of shopping. It was so great to see them, share their sucess stories, talk about their lives and hopefully make some new friends. Making new friends is important to me as:
* In October I had to say good bye to my dear friend Russell (Lois's husband) who I have known for 13 years. After his wife passed away in April he decided he needed to return to his home state. He moved back to Washington to be with his Parents and Siblings.
* In November I had my 5th through 7th date all with the same man E . We went out to dinner twice and a movie (Happy Feet.) But once again I found a man who is extremely busy with work. He works 2 jobs and has very little time to do anything. He passes right by my street exit every Monday when he goes to visit his Mother but doesn't stop off to see me. I think I need to look for a retired man who will have the time to be with me. But then again I never have really liked older men as they always are talking about all their illnesses and can't seem to keep up with me in certain areas.
* Also in Novemeber I took a major step in transforming myself as I signed up for a years worth of exercises at B L . I am able to get into and out of the 10 pieces of equipment. We even figured out how to get me up on and off of the mini trampoline. You are suppose to be able to do the circuit twice within a 1/2 hour. However because of all my limitations it take me an hour to do the exercise and either S or K have to be there with me every step of the way. They make all the equipment seat height and weight lift changes for me. They also bring me my water bottle and take my canes from me and bring them back to me when I am ready to move to the next piece of equipment. I am so enjoying this exercising and know that it will benefit me and help to tone my body.
The ultimate goal is that this exercise will help to strengthen my joints so that I will be able to walk without surgery. I so miss not being able to walk and do the things I used to do. I know it is this inability to walk that is stopping me from doing so many great and wonderful things. I would love to be working full time, going to dance classes, bowling etc, These kinds of actiiites would allow me to meet new people and enjoy life. I know I have made great progress but dam it I am so tired of just existing. I WANT TO LIVE A FUN LIFE and not watch it pass me by.
Now it is December and this month I organized a get together for the Fort Lauderdale Divorce Support group as the organizer had the date and time but hadn't picked a location. I waited and waited but it didn't seem like he was going to, so I did. I was so wanting to make new friends that I decided that if someone doesn't follow through I'd pick up the pieces and complete the project. Well I did get to meet 2 new women who showed up for the dinner at Olive Garden, D and J . T meet us there about 1 1/2 hours late. I invited him as I wasn't sure if anyone would be there and I didn't want to travel down to Boca Raton and have a dinner all by myself. Once I got there I told him 2 other women had arrived and he didn't need to come after all. I guess he was interested in meeting others going through a divorce too so he came down.
I had my 8th and 9th date with F . A guy orginally from Peru, who I thought was very nice and helpful, handsome and polite. I saw him twice within 3 days and thought we really had something going on with each other. I left for my short trip to Daytona Beach to meet with a couple I had meet in another chat room. Had a lovely few days with them and also toured the Rehab Center for the Blind. The day after I got back I called F only to discover he was on the road traveling to Las Vegas to find work as he was not successful in doing so here during the short three weeks he was here. All I could think of when he told me was WHAT THE FUCK! Well it probably wouldn't have worked out any how as on the second day I saw some red flags and areas where we would have problems. I am really beginning to wonder if there is a man out there for me who can meet all of my requirements. Am I too picky?
Well I started this on Decemeber 23 and I am finishing it up on Dec 26th. This pretty much sums up weeks 19 through 48. Below are some pictures taken during this time period.
This first one was taken in August with SO.
This second one was in October when I met some of the other NS Ladies but not knowing if I have their permission to post their pictures I cropped them out.
This last one was taken Novemeber 30th at B l . It was the second day I was there and the first time I was on the mini trampoline. Of course my clothing is so huge you really can't see that I have lost weight.
Well folks that is it for now. I suppose the next time I will post will be when I have lost 100 pounds. Hopefully that will be before my Birthday. I do have a Doctor appointment December 27th. It is my first in over a year so I hope the Doctor will be pleased with my weight loss and my recovery form Lymphedema. Last year around this time I was getting physical theraphy for the swelling of my leg and my weight had climbed to 404. This past week I went on the short trip to Daytona and also went a bit aboard on Christmas evening and day with my foods. I was feeling sorry for myself because I was all alone so I ate foods I shouldn't have and I have gained some since last week. As of today Dec 26th I am 316. So that is really a lost of 88 pounds since last year and most of it was done with no exercise at all.
To all who have read and posted comments and offered support in the Yahoo and NS groups, Thank you so much you all helped me to achieve what I have so far today. Hope your New Year brings you all the things you wished for and Good Health and Happiness.
Saturday, July 15, 2006
WEEKS 15 THROUGH 18 A QUARTER OF THE WAY TO GOAL -52 pounds
Hi Everyone
It has been awhile since I last posted. I am terrible at doing a weekly post but thought I would catch up on the weight loss and life story. As of week 18 I have lost 52 pounds. So now I am a quarter of the way to my goal. That's right I have over 200 pounds of weight I have to lose. I am beginning to see a change in my ability to do things and in my clothing. Here is a before picture of me at 402 pounds taken the week of Jan 29th 2006 when I started NS. The second one is a picture taken around April with 50 pounds gone. I can see the difference in face and my whole body. HURRAY!!!!!!
It has been awhile since I last posted. I am terrible at doing a weekly post but thought I would catch up on the weight loss and life story. As of week 18 I have lost 52 pounds. So now I am a quarter of the way to my goal. That's right I have over 200 pounds of weight I have to lose. I am beginning to see a change in my ability to do things and in my clothing. Here is a before picture of me at 402 pounds taken the week of Jan 29th 2006 when I started NS. The second one is a picture taken around April with 50 pounds gone. I can see the difference in face and my whole body. HURRAY!!!!!!
Monday, May 08, 2006
WEEK 13 & 14 5 MORE POUNDS GONE & SO IS MY BEST FRIEND
Hi Everyone
Weight wise it has been a good 2 weeks-down 5 more pounds. However life has been hard these past 2 weeks. My best friend of almost 20 years passed away on Tuesday April 25, 2006. I will not go into all the details of her death but it was what she wanted and she is now at peace and has no more pain. Her husband is a wreck. Even though he knew how sick she was, he was in denial that she would pass away and leave him alone. I will miss this dear friend of mine.
**To be continued got to go. For those of you who are following my blog and for all the newbie’s, I started this post in May shortly after my friends death. I couldn't continue it as I had started to cry and couldn't see beyond the tears. However now 2 months later the tears still come on really bad days but I feel I can go on and finish this post. I will try to catch up on what has been happening in my life during the past 2 months with other posts after this one.** However I wanted to continue this post as a tribute to my dear friend. It is lengthy but we had a long friendship, one I will cherish and keep in my heart always.
My dear friends name is Lois and she was the first person I meet in the More To Love club I started in 1987. During the next 3 years the club grow in size (no pun intended) and we all had some wonderful times; pool parties, bowling night, movies, miniature golf, festivals and we developed some real good friends. During this time Lois became my room mate for a few years until I moved into a mobile home in 1990. At that time we learned about NAAFA (National Association for the Advancement of Fat Acceptance)and the MTL club merged with the South Florida Chapter of NAAFA. It was through this group that I meet the man I eventually married 5 years after we had met. Lois married before I did and I attended her lovely wedding. We continued to do many things together and with the NAAFA group and really enjoyed each others company. When I married my NAAFA FA (fat admirer) man others thought I shouldn't have and I soon lost friends but Lois stayed as my friend, for which I am truly grateful. I once asked her why when she and others were so against me marrying did she stay my friend and the others didn't. Her reply was because I am an "unconditional friend". She truly was as no matter what I did or said she was always there for me. In fact it was Lois and her husband who years later showed me in print and pictures why they were all set against me marrying the man I did. However that is another story in of itself.
After my marriage Lois and her husband helped clean my place for many years before she became so sick. She was a Nurse and I would run to her for advise about whether or not it was necessary for me to see a Doctor for all the different physical problems that cropped up. She gave me her shoulder to cry on, which I did many times. One time in particular was when I had a real bad and scary female physical problem. She encouraged me to keep seeking out new Doctors and to keep the appointments until finally one was found who knew what to do. It was so frustrating to have to go from one Doctor to another and another and take all the different test. There was 6 months of such terrible pain until I was finally diagnosed and treatment was provided.
Shortly after this time Lois started becoming ill with Kidney Disease. I remembered all she did for me and now it was my time to do for her. Because of my own ill health there wasn't much I could do except visits, cards, phone calls, an occasional dinner at my house and trying to raise money to help them pay for all the medical treatment she had received. My home was such a mess for about 6 months as everyone was giving me their used ink jet cartridges which I in turn sent to a fund raising company. By the way don't do this as we NEVER got the money they promised we would get.
Then came the Hurricanes of 2004 which practically destroyed their home. They lived in a 5th wheel trailer for a number of months until the insurance company took that away from them in 2005. God knows how she managed to climb up the rickety stairs to get into the unit, but she did. By then I was divorced so I invited Lois and Russell to live with me in my home while the inside of their home was rebuilt. None of us thought they would be here for 6 months but I didn't mind. Lois and Russell got to move back into their home and enjoy the Fall Holidays and shortly after their April 17th wedding anniversary Lois passed away.
She was the only friend I had for more than a few years. Our friendship lasted 18 wonderful years. I like to think that because of her loyal friendship I am a better person today. I continue to see Russell on a regular basis as I am trying to help him adjust to his new way of life without the love of his life in it. It will take time for us both to heal. He is progressing as he has asked me to help him go through her many things and putting some of them away. So I figured it was time for me to finish this tribute to my Dear Friend Lois Leissing-Gannon, my Best Friend and
my Nurse Angel. 
May you rest in peace!
Weight wise it has been a good 2 weeks-down 5 more pounds. However life has been hard these past 2 weeks. My best friend of almost 20 years passed away on Tuesday April 25, 2006. I will not go into all the details of her death but it was what she wanted and she is now at peace and has no more pain. Her husband is a wreck. Even though he knew how sick she was, he was in denial that she would pass away and leave him alone. I will miss this dear friend of mine.
**To be continued got to go. For those of you who are following my blog and for all the newbie’s, I started this post in May shortly after my friends death. I couldn't continue it as I had started to cry and couldn't see beyond the tears. However now 2 months later the tears still come on really bad days but I feel I can go on and finish this post. I will try to catch up on what has been happening in my life during the past 2 months with other posts after this one.** However I wanted to continue this post as a tribute to my dear friend. It is lengthy but we had a long friendship, one I will cherish and keep in my heart always.
My dear friends name is Lois and she was the first person I meet in the More To Love club I started in 1987. During the next 3 years the club grow in size (no pun intended) and we all had some wonderful times; pool parties, bowling night, movies, miniature golf, festivals and we developed some real good friends. During this time Lois became my room mate for a few years until I moved into a mobile home in 1990. At that time we learned about NAAFA (National Association for the Advancement of Fat Acceptance)and the MTL club merged with the South Florida Chapter of NAAFA. It was through this group that I meet the man I eventually married 5 years after we had met. Lois married before I did and I attended her lovely wedding. We continued to do many things together and with the NAAFA group and really enjoyed each others company. When I married my NAAFA FA (fat admirer) man others thought I shouldn't have and I soon lost friends but Lois stayed as my friend, for which I am truly grateful. I once asked her why when she and others were so against me marrying did she stay my friend and the others didn't. Her reply was because I am an "unconditional friend". She truly was as no matter what I did or said she was always there for me. In fact it was Lois and her husband who years later showed me in print and pictures why they were all set against me marrying the man I did. However that is another story in of itself.
After my marriage Lois and her husband helped clean my place for many years before she became so sick. She was a Nurse and I would run to her for advise about whether or not it was necessary for me to see a Doctor for all the different physical problems that cropped up. She gave me her shoulder to cry on, which I did many times. One time in particular was when I had a real bad and scary female physical problem. She encouraged me to keep seeking out new Doctors and to keep the appointments until finally one was found who knew what to do. It was so frustrating to have to go from one Doctor to another and another and take all the different test. There was 6 months of such terrible pain until I was finally diagnosed and treatment was provided.
Shortly after this time Lois started becoming ill with Kidney Disease. I remembered all she did for me and now it was my time to do for her. Because of my own ill health there wasn't much I could do except visits, cards, phone calls, an occasional dinner at my house and trying to raise money to help them pay for all the medical treatment she had received. My home was such a mess for about 6 months as everyone was giving me their used ink jet cartridges which I in turn sent to a fund raising company. By the way don't do this as we NEVER got the money they promised we would get.
Then came the Hurricanes of 2004 which practically destroyed their home. They lived in a 5th wheel trailer for a number of months until the insurance company took that away from them in 2005. God knows how she managed to climb up the rickety stairs to get into the unit, but she did. By then I was divorced so I invited Lois and Russell to live with me in my home while the inside of their home was rebuilt. None of us thought they would be here for 6 months but I didn't mind. Lois and Russell got to move back into their home and enjoy the Fall Holidays and shortly after their April 17th wedding anniversary Lois passed away.
She was the only friend I had for more than a few years. Our friendship lasted 18 wonderful years. I like to think that because of her loyal friendship I am a better person today. I continue to see Russell on a regular basis as I am trying to help him adjust to his new way of life without the love of his life in it. It will take time for us both to heal. He is progressing as he has asked me to help him go through her many things and putting some of them away. So I figured it was time for me to finish this tribute to my Dear Friend Lois Leissing-Gannon, my Best Friend and
my Nurse Angel. 
May you rest in peace!
Sunday, April 23, 2006
Week 10, 11 & 12- 13 pounds gone
Hi Everyone
Boy have I been neglecting this blog. It isn't because I didn't get back on track, because I did. As you can see by the title I have lost an additional 13 pounds in 3 weeks. I have now lost a total of 47 pounds in 3 months. The weight loss is fantastic but even better are the non weight loss victories.
During the 10th week I was sitting in my recliner chair and I looked down at my legs and my ankles were crossed. It has been years, (so many I can't even remember when) since I was last able to cross my ankles. What a grand feeling that was that week. But the 11th week I had an even better victory. I was sitting on my bed with my legs out straight on the bed. I was putting my daily lotion on my feet. This is quite a chore as I can only reach my left foot with my hands. In order to get the lotion on my right foot I have to put lotion on the left feet and rub the left foot over and around the right foot. Well I guess I should have used the word had to. That is correct I applied lotion to my right foot with my hand. I had just finished the left foot and had an excess amount of lotion on my hand and the next thing I know my hand is appling the lotion all over my right foot including the bottom. WOOHOO! Now that is a victory I am so proud of. This past week no victory other than weight loss of 3 pounds. Believe me I am pleased with that victory but the non weight loss ones are the best.
Now I have started my 13 week and my monthly NS food should be sent Monday and hopefully I will get it by Thursday. I sure hope my 30 and 40 pound bears are in the package. Pounds and committment are getting bored with each other and need some new play mates. I look forward to getting to know the names of the next two. Silly little bears but they do mean a lot. Well until next week stay happy and healthy everyone.
Boy have I been neglecting this blog. It isn't because I didn't get back on track, because I did. As you can see by the title I have lost an additional 13 pounds in 3 weeks. I have now lost a total of 47 pounds in 3 months. The weight loss is fantastic but even better are the non weight loss victories.
During the 10th week I was sitting in my recliner chair and I looked down at my legs and my ankles were crossed. It has been years, (so many I can't even remember when) since I was last able to cross my ankles. What a grand feeling that was that week. But the 11th week I had an even better victory. I was sitting on my bed with my legs out straight on the bed. I was putting my daily lotion on my feet. This is quite a chore as I can only reach my left foot with my hands. In order to get the lotion on my right foot I have to put lotion on the left feet and rub the left foot over and around the right foot. Well I guess I should have used the word had to. That is correct I applied lotion to my right foot with my hand. I had just finished the left foot and had an excess amount of lotion on my hand and the next thing I know my hand is appling the lotion all over my right foot including the bottom. WOOHOO! Now that is a victory I am so proud of. This past week no victory other than weight loss of 3 pounds. Believe me I am pleased with that victory but the non weight loss ones are the best.
Now I have started my 13 week and my monthly NS food should be sent Monday and hopefully I will get it by Thursday. I sure hope my 30 and 40 pound bears are in the package. Pounds and committment are getting bored with each other and need some new play mates. I look forward to getting to know the names of the next two. Silly little bears but they do mean a lot. Well until next week stay happy and healthy everyone.
Sunday, April 16, 2006
WEEK 9 - 2 POUNDS UP - THE DONUTS DID IT!
Hi all
Well you and I both know the donuts at work didn't get me. I mean it's not like they jumped off the plate and into my hands and said you must eat me now! I let my hands get into them (2 of them) and a bagel with cream cheese. Sad part is I didn't stop there. When I left work on Friday I went across the street to Wendy's and ordered a Wendy's burger. Hey I could have done worse with a bigger burger, french fries and one of those ice cream things but I didn't have any more money. As it turns out I had to search the bottom of the purse and the floor of the car to pay for the 99 cent junior burger. Sometimes there is an advantage to having no money. But after the burger I still didn’t stop. I was out of control and the rest of the night and into Saturday I ate cheese and bread until they were gone.
Come today I am up 2 pounds so I guess I got what I deserved. However this gain has gotten me right back on track. I will not be around donuts again until the end of April and this time I am keeping my hands off of them. I am also going to wait a few weeks before I buy cheese and bread again. I have had trouble with the bread before and now I am overeating the cheese. These 2 foods are trigger foods for me still and I don’t have control over them. So the best thing to do is stay away from them for now. I have to stay on program this coming week and must not give into temptation. Heck I have no excuses not to stay on program the sabotager has been out of my life for over 14 months now and I will not have him in my life again. Thank God! So folks stay on program, stay happy and healthy and I’ll see you next week with a loss.
Well you and I both know the donuts at work didn't get me. I mean it's not like they jumped off the plate and into my hands and said you must eat me now! I let my hands get into them (2 of them) and a bagel with cream cheese. Sad part is I didn't stop there. When I left work on Friday I went across the street to Wendy's and ordered a Wendy's burger. Hey I could have done worse with a bigger burger, french fries and one of those ice cream things but I didn't have any more money. As it turns out I had to search the bottom of the purse and the floor of the car to pay for the 99 cent junior burger. Sometimes there is an advantage to having no money. But after the burger I still didn’t stop. I was out of control and the rest of the night and into Saturday I ate cheese and bread until they were gone.
Come today I am up 2 pounds so I guess I got what I deserved. However this gain has gotten me right back on track. I will not be around donuts again until the end of April and this time I am keeping my hands off of them. I am also going to wait a few weeks before I buy cheese and bread again. I have had trouble with the bread before and now I am overeating the cheese. These 2 foods are trigger foods for me still and I don’t have control over them. So the best thing to do is stay away from them for now. I have to stay on program this coming week and must not give into temptation. Heck I have no excuses not to stay on program the sabotager has been out of my life for over 14 months now and I will not have him in my life again. Thank God! So folks stay on program, stay happy and healthy and I’ll see you next week with a loss.
Monday, March 27, 2006
WEEK 8 - 1 POUND GONE
First off thanks everyone for the lovely comments left on my week 6 blog. I'll have to check out your blog Susan. This was another slow week, but I am trying to stay motivated. I think it is time to read some blogs from big losers and get back on the boards. This week I should receive my new order and my 3 bears (I don't know why I didn't get 2 with last months order) I was looking forward to those bears but maybe they weren't to be sent as I need them now as they will give me some motivation. I have 8 more weeks before a huge event takes place and I want to lose at least 20 pounds. However, based on this past months' weight loss I may not make it. I am hoping and praying my body is just taking a break from having lost the 27.5 pounds last month. I'm going to have to begin to do some chair exercises 3 - 4 times a week and that will help burn extra calories. If I can lose those 20 pounds I'll be so happy and feel a lot better for this important event in my life. Wish me luck that next week will be better. See you on the boards.
WEEK 7- 2 POUNDS GONE
Seems like writting in the blog has not been as exciting as it once was. Perhaps because the weight loss has not been as exciting either. Yes it is going down but has slowed so much. I started my new phone answering job on March 20th and sold one bounce house rental. I couldn't get on the computer during the day and was tired by night fall so I didn't post in the boards at all. Not much else is new. Everyone stay happy and healthy.
Sunday, March 12, 2006
WEEK 6 - 3.5 MORE POUNDS GONE
This is fantastic! I have lost every single week. In the past by this week with the WW plan I all ready had a no loss week. I really like the simplicity of the NS program and the variety of foods. I can eat Pizza, Chili dogs, hamburger, chocolate, chips and still lose weight.
I had some pictures taken in a swim suit this week There is story behind this swimsuit, so if interested keep reading. If not, skip to the next paragraph. In 1999 (when I weighed over 100 pounds more) I had gone to a BBW bash and a Lady there was selling swimsuits. I ordered one to be made and when it arrived I couldn't fit into. There was another Lady who ordered the exact same style and colors and I thought maybe I got her suit. I told the seller this and she said it was the correct size for me. So I put it away and forgot about it until this week. This week I had about 15 college students (who were on Spring Break) volunteering at my house. They did over 16 chores for me to try and get the house back into shape after the last 3 hurricanes hit here. Anyhow, two of the girls and I went through my closet to straighten it out and come upon the suit. After they all left I tried to put on the suit. As I slowly pulled and tugged I finally got the panties up over my hips and even fit into the top part of the suit. There never was much support in the swimsuit for me so the ladies aren't in the proper place, but I had it on! Saturday I had a very close friend of mine take some pictures. I probably should have had some taken when I was 33 pounds heavier but I have so much to lose that I am sure the 33 pounds loss wouldn't show that much. I will have more taken in May, which will be 4 months I have been on program. Of course no one will see any of these pictures until I get to goal.
Well folks I don't know how many are reading the blog as I don't see any comments. But if you are reading it I hope you have enjoyed reading about this week and my success in doing it the NS Weigh. I hope you all have a happy and healthy week. See you on the boards.
I had some pictures taken in a swim suit this week There is story behind this swimsuit, so if interested keep reading. If not, skip to the next paragraph. In 1999 (when I weighed over 100 pounds more) I had gone to a BBW bash and a Lady there was selling swimsuits. I ordered one to be made and when it arrived I couldn't fit into. There was another Lady who ordered the exact same style and colors and I thought maybe I got her suit. I told the seller this and she said it was the correct size for me. So I put it away and forgot about it until this week. This week I had about 15 college students (who were on Spring Break) volunteering at my house. They did over 16 chores for me to try and get the house back into shape after the last 3 hurricanes hit here. Anyhow, two of the girls and I went through my closet to straighten it out and come upon the suit. After they all left I tried to put on the suit. As I slowly pulled and tugged I finally got the panties up over my hips and even fit into the top part of the suit. There never was much support in the swimsuit for me so the ladies aren't in the proper place, but I had it on! Saturday I had a very close friend of mine take some pictures. I probably should have had some taken when I was 33 pounds heavier but I have so much to lose that I am sure the 33 pounds loss wouldn't show that much. I will have more taken in May, which will be 4 months I have been on program. Of course no one will see any of these pictures until I get to goal.
Well folks I don't know how many are reading the blog as I don't see any comments. But if you are reading it I hope you have enjoyed reading about this week and my success in doing it the NS Weigh. I hope you all have a happy and healthy week. See you on the boards.
WEEK 5 - 2 MORE POUNDS GONE
Oops! I forgot to post here last week. The fifth week of being on the program. Let's see if I can remember the week. Oh yes I avoid the temptation of donuts that stared at me for over 1 1/2 hours. Turns out one of my clients didn't show for her lesson and I had to wait in the employee lounge area (I only work 2 days and don't have an office). Sitting there on one of the tables was a box with Dunkin Donuts and some of them were my favorite kind. I had plenty of lesson plans to write so I kept my eyes on the plans and had a diet coke. It was very tempting when 3 Ladies came in and took donuts but I kept saying to myself "You don't want those donuts they are poision". I tried to remember the way I felt after eating them in the past. They maybe tasted good going down but for at least 3 hours afterward I had a feeling like a brick was in my stomach. Yes well, there was a "brick of lard" I avoided the temptation and my reward was a 2 pound loss. Hurray what a nice reward.
Also this week I got my second order. I was a bit disappointed though as I didn't get the 2 bears I thought I would. I have heard so much about those bears and was excited to think I will have a new bear collections and one that shows my weight loss. I also got another extra week of food - I didn't think I asked for that but the bill doesn't shows the cost for the extra week. So I guess that is my second week free for signing up. I also didn't like the moldy NS chocolate cake. I had seen on the boards some people were talking about it and hoped I didn't get any. After I saw it was moldy I went to the package and there was no expiration date. I called them and they said they would send out another one or something different. . The second one I ordered was fine. In the grocery store I found some veggie ground beef, and sausage and hot dogs. I had a real nice chili dog for dinner one night. Used the NS chili, the veggie dog and one of my breads along with a big salad. I also tried the NS hamburger and added lettuce etc. Felt good to eat a bit differently than I had been eating. Well folks stay healthy and happy and see you on the boards.
Also this week I got my second order. I was a bit disappointed though as I didn't get the 2 bears I thought I would. I have heard so much about those bears and was excited to think I will have a new bear collections and one that shows my weight loss. I also got another extra week of food - I didn't think I asked for that but the bill doesn't shows the cost for the extra week. So I guess that is my second week free for signing up. I also didn't like the moldy NS chocolate cake. I had seen on the boards some people were talking about it and hoped I didn't get any. After I saw it was moldy I went to the package and there was no expiration date. I called them and they said they would send out another one or something different. . The second one I ordered was fine. In the grocery store I found some veggie ground beef, and sausage and hot dogs. I had a real nice chili dog for dinner one night. Used the NS chili, the veggie dog and one of my breads along with a big salad. I also tried the NS hamburger and added lettuce etc. Felt good to eat a bit differently than I had been eating. Well folks stay healthy and happy and see you on the boards.
Sunday, February 26, 2006
WEEK 4 - 5.5 MORE POUNDS GONE
TOTAL FOR THE MONTH 27.5 POUNDS OF FAT GONE FOREVER!
I LOVE THIS PROGRAM! Yes I am shouting it from the roof top and to all who may be reading this blog. If you are wondering if this program will work for you. Be assured that if you have the right mind set and really want to lose weight this program will be it. As their jingle says it will “nourish your mind, nourish your health , nourish your body, nourish yourself.” I have been on many programs in my life time and this is the first one in which I feel all those things are happening to me. I am learning portion control and how to eat the correct way and not to put so much emphasis on food. My health is beginning to improve, so is my body and my self worth.
During my previous weight loss attempt in 2004 I had to plan each week what foods I was going to eat, figure out the points for each item, spend hours shopping for it and preparing it. Going to get weighed in was a very uncomfortable chore for me. I had to try an get my scooter around that small room to get to my card and the scales and then have a crowd of people looking on as I tried to get off the scooter and balance myself on the scale and hope and pray I did everything right that week so I lost a few more pounds. On that other program I lost 19 pounds the first month. It took me almost 7 weeks on that program to lose the 27.5 pounds I have lost in 4 weeks with NS. NS is so simple and the best thing I have done for myself. They are right when they say "the pounds will melt off.
I pray to God each day to help me to choose to stay on program so I can continue to reach my goal. Each day I say to myself “obstacles are what you see when you take your eyes off the goal.” Well let me tell you my eyes are fixated on that goal. I no longer will accept being a Super Sized Fl Belle. I know inside of all this fat just waiting to come out is the Sexy Slim Fl Belle. “I’m coming out and I want the world to know and I’m going to let it show.” Of course it may take me a year or more but it will happen. I know I will be staying healthy and happy the NS weigh and hope all of you will too. See you on the boards.
I LOVE THIS PROGRAM! Yes I am shouting it from the roof top and to all who may be reading this blog. If you are wondering if this program will work for you. Be assured that if you have the right mind set and really want to lose weight this program will be it. As their jingle says it will “nourish your mind, nourish your health , nourish your body, nourish yourself.” I have been on many programs in my life time and this is the first one in which I feel all those things are happening to me. I am learning portion control and how to eat the correct way and not to put so much emphasis on food. My health is beginning to improve, so is my body and my self worth.
During my previous weight loss attempt in 2004 I had to plan each week what foods I was going to eat, figure out the points for each item, spend hours shopping for it and preparing it. Going to get weighed in was a very uncomfortable chore for me. I had to try an get my scooter around that small room to get to my card and the scales and then have a crowd of people looking on as I tried to get off the scooter and balance myself on the scale and hope and pray I did everything right that week so I lost a few more pounds. On that other program I lost 19 pounds the first month. It took me almost 7 weeks on that program to lose the 27.5 pounds I have lost in 4 weeks with NS. NS is so simple and the best thing I have done for myself. They are right when they say "the pounds will melt off.
I pray to God each day to help me to choose to stay on program so I can continue to reach my goal. Each day I say to myself “obstacles are what you see when you take your eyes off the goal.” Well let me tell you my eyes are fixated on that goal. I no longer will accept being a Super Sized Fl Belle. I know inside of all this fat just waiting to come out is the Sexy Slim Fl Belle. “I’m coming out and I want the world to know and I’m going to let it show.” Of course it may take me a year or more but it will happen. I know I will be staying healthy and happy the NS weigh and hope all of you will too. See you on the boards.
Sunday, February 19, 2006
WEEK THREE - 6 POUNDS GONE
This is the year for me to get even more weight off. I can feel it in my heart and my body. I am focused on this plan and my work. No husband to bring food into the house he knew I shouldn’t eat. No husband to say I am an FA (fat admirer) your turning into skin and bones. Believe it or not he said that to me just before the divorce, while we were on vacation. I had spent the previous 5 months following WW and exercising at Inches a Weigh. I had lost over 50 pounds and got down to 447. Our marriage had been rocky for about 4 years and I thought this vacation and my new found ability to do things would perhaps mend it. Instead it made it worse as I came to find out it wasn’t me he loved it was my fat and now I was getting too thin for him. How can any body be too thin at 447 pounds? I saw the light as to what he was doing with not only my life but his life as well. I couldn't let this continue so I filed for divorced. (Believe me there were many other reasons I filed, just don’t wish to go into those areas). Then came Hurricanes Frances and Jeanne. They not only walloped Florida but took me for a spin too. House damage both times, 1st time insurance wouldn’t pay second time they wouldn’t pay either but I fought for over 6 months and finally got the insurance. Here I am fighting with a husband who wouldn’t leave my house, fighting for a divorce, fighting for insurance money, yet still trying to lose weight and I did. He finally left Feb 2005 and then 2 friends move into the house for a few weeks, more like 6 months. Their home was in horrible shape because of Frances and Jeanne and they couldn’t live in it and the FEMA trailer the insurance was paying for was taken away. They had no where to go - Amanda to the rescue. I was so lucky to have been able to not gain back all the weight I had lost. Oh well I have to forget about those 2 years and keep focused on this year 2006.
This year it is my turn to be rescued! With God’s help, my determination and the NS Weigh I am going to have a life again. I am so sick and tired of being sick and tired. I want to live again, to do the things I use to do. To be loved for who I am and not the size of my body. To be able to love that special someone ( whoever he may be) back and know it doesn’t matter if I am 200 or 400. I have to stay focused, stay motivated and stay on program. With the encouragement of all my friends from the NS and Jazzman support boards and my Happy and Healthy yahoo friends I know I can do this. Reading the posts and the blogs of NS and Jazzman friends (I have never met but hope to as we have quite a group of them in Palm Beach County)) who have lost 50 to 100 pounds in such short periods of time gives me so much encouragement. I am so excited for them because I know where they came from weight wise and know how I would feel if I was 100 pounds thinner. I know I am going to have that feeling and I see it coming to me before the end of the summer. So I look forward to your e-mails, and I’ll see you on the boards and in the chat rooms. Stay Happy and Healthy.
This year it is my turn to be rescued! With God’s help, my determination and the NS Weigh I am going to have a life again. I am so sick and tired of being sick and tired. I want to live again, to do the things I use to do. To be loved for who I am and not the size of my body. To be able to love that special someone ( whoever he may be) back and know it doesn’t matter if I am 200 or 400. I have to stay focused, stay motivated and stay on program. With the encouragement of all my friends from the NS and Jazzman support boards and my Happy and Healthy yahoo friends I know I can do this. Reading the posts and the blogs of NS and Jazzman friends (I have never met but hope to as we have quite a group of them in Palm Beach County)) who have lost 50 to 100 pounds in such short periods of time gives me so much encouragement. I am so excited for them because I know where they came from weight wise and know how I would feel if I was 100 pounds thinner. I know I am going to have that feeling and I see it coming to me before the end of the summer. So I look forward to your e-mails, and I’ll see you on the boards and in the chat rooms. Stay Happy and Healthy.
Sunday, February 12, 2006
WEEK TWO - 3 MORE POUND GONE
Hi everyone
This week was good until Thursday night. Thursday was the first time I had bread since I started on Jan 29th. I had NS Sloppy Joe and it said to have it with a roll. I had a wheat roll 80 calories and put the meat on it. I also had an oz of FF lunchmeat and some lettuce. Later I had my afternoon snack, my dinner and my evening snack. Around 10 p.m. I was hungry. Now I know from Oprah's show that when you are hungry it is a good sign that you are losing. However I went to that stupid refrigerator about 3 times. It seems like the roll and lunch meat were calling me to it. I broke down and had 2 oz of FF lunch meat and the roll with FF mayo, at least 150 extra calories. But I didn't stop with one, nor two but had three sandwiches. That's an extra 450 calories I shouldn't have had. What bothers me is that I have always had a problem with bread. I have been known to eat a loaf of wheat bread in 3 days. However I thought since starting this program I had it under control, I guess that is not the case.
The only things that made this a weight loss week was the exercise I did after midnight and staying on program 100% for the remaining week. I had 4 more rolls sititng in the refrigerator. Today for lunch I had NS meatballs with a roll. I know why do it again when you had trouble on Thursday. Two reason- one I didn't want to waste the rolls (especially when I am only working 10 hours a week and don't have much money coming in at this time) Second reason - some of the NS meals suggest bread of some kind and I need to learn how to control the impluses to over eat on this food. So we shall see what today brings. One good thing I have no more lunchmeat to put on the rolls so that may prevent me from a binge.
I will have to get on the NS and Jazzman's boards to see what others are doing with the sloppy joe meal and tuna salad, chicken salad, chickenbreast, beef burger etc. instead of using rolls. I'm sure when I express this problem to the NS friends they will have some excellent suggestions. So 2 weeks down 3 more weeks of food to go. I'm going to have to ask them also when I need to re-order for next month. That is it for this now see you next week.
This week was good until Thursday night. Thursday was the first time I had bread since I started on Jan 29th. I had NS Sloppy Joe and it said to have it with a roll. I had a wheat roll 80 calories and put the meat on it. I also had an oz of FF lunchmeat and some lettuce. Later I had my afternoon snack, my dinner and my evening snack. Around 10 p.m. I was hungry. Now I know from Oprah's show that when you are hungry it is a good sign that you are losing. However I went to that stupid refrigerator about 3 times. It seems like the roll and lunch meat were calling me to it. I broke down and had 2 oz of FF lunch meat and the roll with FF mayo, at least 150 extra calories. But I didn't stop with one, nor two but had three sandwiches. That's an extra 450 calories I shouldn't have had. What bothers me is that I have always had a problem with bread. I have been known to eat a loaf of wheat bread in 3 days. However I thought since starting this program I had it under control, I guess that is not the case.
The only things that made this a weight loss week was the exercise I did after midnight and staying on program 100% for the remaining week. I had 4 more rolls sititng in the refrigerator. Today for lunch I had NS meatballs with a roll. I know why do it again when you had trouble on Thursday. Two reason- one I didn't want to waste the rolls (especially when I am only working 10 hours a week and don't have much money coming in at this time) Second reason - some of the NS meals suggest bread of some kind and I need to learn how to control the impluses to over eat on this food. So we shall see what today brings. One good thing I have no more lunchmeat to put on the rolls so that may prevent me from a binge.
I will have to get on the NS and Jazzman's boards to see what others are doing with the sloppy joe meal and tuna salad, chicken salad, chickenbreast, beef burger etc. instead of using rolls. I'm sure when I express this problem to the NS friends they will have some excellent suggestions. So 2 weeks down 3 more weeks of food to go. I'm going to have to ask them also when I need to re-order for next month. That is it for this now see you next week.
WEEK ONE - 13 POUNDS GONE
WEEK ONE 13 POUNDS GONE
Hi All
I started a new program today January 2006 and decided to write about what I had been doing and what new program I will be doing for awhile. I was very pleased with the previous program but was getting tired of it and felt I had to change things up a bit. In Decemeber 2005 my employer of 18 years let me and 9 others go. Downsizing! So I am using the Severance Pay I received for hardly ever taken any vacation for myself to pay for the food. I also filed for disability in December as I have a physical condition that has gotten worse over the years and it was getting harder and harder to do my job. So I suppose that had something to do with them letting me go also. Anyhow even with the disability I can still work a few hours a week and I did find a new job.
So here is my short story from the previous 2 years!
I had been following the WW program since Jan 2004 even though Hubby was still in the house. You see in May 2004 I started the divorce process but he would never leave the house so once the divorce was final in February 2005 he was forced out. H*** he wasn'tt here much anyhow and he wasn't sleeping in the bed so it didn't bother me. I had no idea where he was eating and I could really care less. One year later January 2005 I was 95 pounds thinner. I went from my all time high 497 to 402. 95 pounds in 1 year.
Here is the before and the after
When the divorce was final in February the ex left but my best friends Lois and Russell came to live with me from March 2005 until Sept 2005. There home had major damage due to the Hurricanes of 2004 and their 5th wheel trailer was taken away by their insurance. They had no where to live so I told them to come and live with me. It was suppose to be for about 6 weeks but turned out to be 6 months. Well it was extremely hard to follow the program when 2 others were living with me and they were cooking meals on the 3 days I was working. I was trying not to eat the Banana breads and other wonderful things they made, but I gave in several times. As a result I gained back some weight but did manage to lose it again after they left. I was hoping for more weight loss in 2005 but was very happy that I managed to finish the year up at the same weight as I started the year.
So that catches you all up to now 2006. Started a new weight loss program. I'm doing it the the Nutrisystem Weigh now. I got my food delivered to the door, sorted out the 5 weeks worth of breakfasts, lunches, dinners and desserts, read the booklet and started on Sunday Jan 29th. Five days after my 50th birthday and weighing in at 402 pounds. Sunday was a good day. By the afternoon on Monday I though all my God if I don't stop going to the bathroom I am DONE with this program. Tuesday I woke up and I was fine and it has been great each day since. I guess Monday was the day my body got rid of all the bad toxins I had in my system. Thank God it was only one day's worth. I am enjoying the food and not having to do a great deal of planning, preparing of food nor cleaning up. Best of all I don't have to count points (like the previous program) or calories. NS does it all for me. This first week I lost 13 pounds, I am now down below the 400's, didn't even see the 390's as I flew by them and now I am into the 380's.
I LOVE IT!
Hi All
I started a new program today January 2006 and decided to write about what I had been doing and what new program I will be doing for awhile. I was very pleased with the previous program but was getting tired of it and felt I had to change things up a bit. In Decemeber 2005 my employer of 18 years let me and 9 others go. Downsizing! So I am using the Severance Pay I received for hardly ever taken any vacation for myself to pay for the food. I also filed for disability in December as I have a physical condition that has gotten worse over the years and it was getting harder and harder to do my job. So I suppose that had something to do with them letting me go also. Anyhow even with the disability I can still work a few hours a week and I did find a new job.
So here is my short story from the previous 2 years!
I had been following the WW program since Jan 2004 even though Hubby was still in the house. You see in May 2004 I started the divorce process but he would never leave the house so once the divorce was final in February 2005 he was forced out. H*** he wasn'tt here much anyhow and he wasn't sleeping in the bed so it didn't bother me. I had no idea where he was eating and I could really care less. One year later January 2005 I was 95 pounds thinner. I went from my all time high 497 to 402. 95 pounds in 1 year.
Here is the before and the after
When the divorce was final in February the ex left but my best friends Lois and Russell came to live with me from March 2005 until Sept 2005. There home had major damage due to the Hurricanes of 2004 and their 5th wheel trailer was taken away by their insurance. They had no where to live so I told them to come and live with me. It was suppose to be for about 6 weeks but turned out to be 6 months. Well it was extremely hard to follow the program when 2 others were living with me and they were cooking meals on the 3 days I was working. I was trying not to eat the Banana breads and other wonderful things they made, but I gave in several times. As a result I gained back some weight but did manage to lose it again after they left. I was hoping for more weight loss in 2005 but was very happy that I managed to finish the year up at the same weight as I started the year.
So that catches you all up to now 2006. Started a new weight loss program. I'm doing it the the Nutrisystem Weigh now. I got my food delivered to the door, sorted out the 5 weeks worth of breakfasts, lunches, dinners and desserts, read the booklet and started on Sunday Jan 29th. Five days after my 50th birthday and weighing in at 402 pounds. Sunday was a good day. By the afternoon on Monday I though all my God if I don't stop going to the bathroom I am DONE with this program. Tuesday I woke up and I was fine and it has been great each day since. I guess Monday was the day my body got rid of all the bad toxins I had in my system. Thank God it was only one day's worth. I am enjoying the food and not having to do a great deal of planning, preparing of food nor cleaning up. Best of all I don't have to count points (like the previous program) or calories. NS does it all for me. This first week I lost 13 pounds, I am now down below the 400's, didn't even see the 390's as I flew by them and now I am into the 380's.
I LOVE IT!
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